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I am radiating love for my lovable, lovable cousin... she bought me Game of Kings by Dorothy Dunnett! And it's from New York! New York!

I loves me my cousin!XDD

Fiction

I have a very odd snippet here, it felt right to write it but it is strange and... very dark.

Paint it Black

This is the truth she knows: everyone is capable of cruelty.
It's a truth that is almost always not acknowledged, everyone is capable of random cruelties.

Children, teenagers, adults...

It's the hidden thread that's hidden beneath the layers of civilized society, exercised in almost anyway possible.

In public: A man, a boy, a woman, a girl hitting on those weaker than themselves. In private: The weak, the repressed unleashing on their inferiors, on their intimates. A great ball of rage pinioned between the heart and the ribcage creating an armor against compassion and pity until the deed is done.

Then guilt comes like a tidal wave crushing both the sinner and the victim.

Lina knows this hears the news everyday, reads history. Seen the clips of Nazi's, of warlords parading around.

But knowing and knowing are two different things, so she sits on the corner and hearing in the background, the sobs of her daughter oddly muffled.

How did it start? A conversation, a plan gone awry and then the shouting, by her and the crying by her daughter. And begging by her daughter but it was unstoppable, Lina's anger and her rage and so she continued cold and hard and unrelenting, thinking of everything she gave up for her daughter, thinking of every unrelated incident because... she is angry and tired and angry.

Lina knows she is being cruel but she doesn't stop, cannot stop because it also feels good to go on. Until it doesn't, until sense is knocked into her and the situations are now reversed with Lina begging for forgiveness.

Everyone is capable of cruelty.

Listening to her daughter's sobs and learns she is not exempt, too late.

-- Monic Almario, 2004

Weather and other sundry details

It was sweltering hot early this morning but by the time I reach the office the weather has gone a complete 360, the clouds were low and gray and the wind was blowing past with enough enthusiasm that made me doubt the stability of the coconut tree in front of the parking lot.

You know, this layouts been here since... forever and I still have no plans to change it. Okay, actually I *do* I'm just too lazy to do anything about it.

Besides Guy Pierce is always a welcome distractionXD

Hey, everyone, join in prayer, Marie's trying to get into a Singapore University! *glares* Why are you not praying yet?

Oh, hey, bought a book... hardbound for, get this: P79.95! I just love National Book Sale day! ;)

Current Reading: Diana Wynne Jones' Howl's Moving Castle
Margaret Atwoods' the Blind Assassin